it's the countdown

so here we are, a few weeks out from me waiting at an alter for the most beautiful woman in the world to marry me. It has been somewhat worldwind but I don't really mind.

All throughout my life I just wanted to be loved unconditionally. I wanted someone to not condone but understand the things I have done. It hasn't been easy because you will always feel as if someone will judge you. Ok, I basically mean me. I have had this monkey on my shoulders for years. I am not the prettiest, smartest, or even the sanest person so when I am in the company of people who I feel are better then me, I shut down. I have so many people that tell me that I am intelligent but deep inside of me, I know I need to get something done to make ME feel that way.

Plenty of work ahead.